Thoughts

This past Friday, as tragedy struck at Sandy Hook Elementary school, I was working at our farm store with my mom, sister, and our babies. My older boys were safe at their elementary school and my husband, a high school principal was safe at his school.

 I tried to keep the radio and tv off and I prayed that my boys would never have to hear of what happened. But in today's world, they knew far to soon. We have struggled to explain this to them. How do you? I don't think you can.

 

They continue to ask me questions that break my heart.

My oldest boy, a fifth grader asked "Mom, I know that we have locks at the front doors of school but what about when I'm at recess? There are no walls or locks. Just a fence. 

Can someone shoot us there?" 

It breaks my heart that they might go to school tomorrow morning fearful.

We are doing our best to comfort them and give them the security that it's ok to

go to school and this won't happen to them. And at the same time, it scares me so much. 

I can't imagine what the families of all the victims have to live through.

 

I am thankful to have my boys and husband safe and sound.

 

I'm sure that I can say on behalf of my family and all of us at Arrow Acres

that we are thinking of the families and praying for them. 

 

My grandmother has been on my mind a lot the past week or so.

I think of her all the time, but even more so lately.

We had a wonderful party last weekend at my sister, Liz's house with cousins, laughing, eating and playing games.  Last night we all got back together to welcome Christmas at my cousin, Michael's. We laughed, ate and sang Christmas carols as he played the piano for us. I hope she was laughing and singing right along with us. She loved to listen to us play our instruments.

 

And this morning, I took the boys to church. We sat in her pew.

Our pastor prayed for the Sandy Hook Elementary victims and we all cried.

I know MomMom sits there every Sunday in spirit.
Garrett sat on her today. Sorry MomMom. But I don't think you minded :)

 

 

This was a bit scattered today, but that's how my brain is right now.

A mix of happy, sad, thankful and overwhelmed.

I think I'll knit. That will make things better :)